Saturday, October 15, 2011


I'm ready to just be me.
I'm ready to love myself and my kids.
I'm ready to let go of the trash in my life.
I'm ready to not worry about the ones who don't matter.
I'm ready to let go of those that don't matter.
I'm ready to admit that there are some that don't matter.
I'm ready to go.

But I'm really scared to do it!

Friday, October 14, 2011

Back to the drawing board

Sometimes we expect to much of a person. Sometimes that person just can't (or won't) live up to that expectation. I can't keep expecting great things when great things just don't happen. So what do I do, I lower my expectations. When the person tells me they will do something great, I listen. I hope it's true. But I do not hold my breath. Oh, I used to! I just learned it easier not to. So now when he tells me he wants to have a picnic in a park down town, I automatically assume he's making empty gestures. But when he also tells our 6 year old they will spend time together I get MAD. You might get away with messing with me, but NOT with my children. And I don't care if they are your children too. You don't mess with a mommas baby boy... All I have to say is that if he does not carry that one out I know what I am getting him for Christmas.
If you need to know a little more about my reasoning behind a big metal animal, I would look to the Bloggess and her awesome post about bath towels and a big metal chickens. Seriously, a good read by the way! But I like the big metal donkey because it actually says "hey Jack Ass" in a not so subtle silence. HaHa...

In other news... I want a trade. I want a man who can support me and still want want to take me on walks and/or picnics on the sea wall or the beach. Nice long, childless walks by the water are romantic early in the morning, at sunset or any other time of the day or night really. So if time isn't an issue why can't it happen? It doesn't 'cost anything, unless you want it to.

And now on to your regularly scheduled procrastination... cause I know if you had something better to do than to read my blog posts you would be doing it.

Saturday, October 8, 2011

Getting away

I'm sitting here in the best cafe ever. I'm enjoying a falafel wrap with a side of baby carrots and some hummus. It's such a good and fresh taste. Well, because it is fresh. But I am alone. I'm ok with that though. I just don't like it so much because when I spend time alone and away from everyone and out of the house I end up thinking about how nice it would be to have someone with me that would really enjoy walking on the seawall.