Thursday, October 16, 2008
So we set up another appointment with the Dr for his circumcision. Well this time he found a heart murmur! So he sent us to get some x-rays done and to see the pediatric cardiologist. He had to be held down for the x-rays, which he didn't really mind. And then he had lots of sticky things attached to him for the EKG. Again he really didn't mind. Then he had to have an ultrasound to look at his heart. They used his blanket to hold his arms down. He seemed to be very comfortable though. In fact, he almost fell asleep. LOL It's about time he went through something that wasn't so harsh on him! Our next appointment there is in April of next year. So we aren't looking too bad.
I am almost scared to take him back to see the pediatrician. What else could he find?! At this rate we are never going to get him circumcised!
Well other than all of that, he is doing great! He sleeps well, eats well, potties well. LOL You know what I mean.
He was born at:
21 1/4 inches
At 1 1/2 weeks he was:
At 2 1/2 weeks he was:
At 4 weeks he was:
And at 5 weeks he is:
So he gaining a lot of weight and growing bigger every day! I keep telling him to stop growing, but he won't listen to me. He's my last, I want him to be a baby for a long time. I started noticing today how much bigger Kaleb really is. It kind of makes me sad... :(
Wednesday, October 1, 2008
Wednesday, September 3, 2008
Anyways, I am probably going to be just getting home from the hospital on our second annual International Crochet Day. So I don't believe I will be doing anything on that day. However, I am working on the Care Bear for my little boy. I'm doing Bed Time Bear for this one. I'm using Caron simply soft. I love that stuff! I guess I will be working on that quite a bit for the next few days. Hopefully I can find the time to get it finished before he arrives.
That's all the time I have for now. I guess I'll be putting in my labor story and the arrival of our new little boy the next time.
Wish me luck!!!
Saturday, August 23, 2008
Here it is all set up.
And here's a pic of the blanket that I made for him. For all you crocheter's out there, this is the Diagonal Box Stitch. I have come to love doing it. It's very quick! I can't remember the yarn that I used. It was Bernat though. And it is soooo soft. I used my Jimbo Hook, it's a size H.
Any ways, back to my baby! I have everything but a car seat and stroller. DH wants to be here when we buy it, so I am waiting for him to get home on Monday. I have all of the things that I need for the hospital all piled up. I just need to put them in a bag. LOL I have 4 weeks till my due date. And I am hoping that I don't actually last that long! I guess we shall see.
The kids are getting excited! Christian likes to help me set things up. And Kaleb loves to pick things out. They are going to get New Big Brother Gifts on the day the baby comes. I got a digital camera for Christian. I am going to pick up a replacement wedding band for Jason. He lost his months ago! I picked out one that has 3 diamonds in it. It's pretty simple looking other than that. It's made out of a really strong metal too. Tungsten. It's supposed to be the strongest one available. It should be able to stand up to working in the oil field! I will pick up something for Kaleb. I'm not sure what yet. But he's easy to get for, so it shouldn't be a problem.
Tuesday, July 1, 2008
I guess I could tell a little bit about the day we had. The kids were a hand full! They started off the day like that. So they were not on their best behavior for the ultrasound. But they still enjoyed it. The sonographer said they can sometimes see if there is any hair on the babies head. She saw none on Keegan. Doesn't surprise me though. Both my boys came out with very thin hair. So that could be why she didn't see any. He is already in position for birth! That doesn't surprise me either. Kaleb was like that for three months before he was born too. Keegan likes to keep his feet up close to his head. I wish she had gotten a picture of that. But she specifically tried not to. She wanted his hand by it instead. Which he did have them up there. But they were tucked away so she couldn't get a pic of them. It is an awesome experience! I wish these ultrasounds were covered by insurance though.
Kaleb kept on saying, "that my baby? My baby in yours tummy? Doctors get my baby out yours tummy?" I kept on having to tell him, not yet. He was pretty amazed by all this too.
BTW - Keegan looks like he has chin like Kaleb's, but looks more like Christin with the chubby cheeks.
Sunday, June 29, 2008
In other words, we have kept busy every day so far since the twins have been down! For those of you that don't know, I have twin step kids. One girl one boy. They are 6 months younger than my oldest son. So I have had my hands full, with four kids at our house. One week left! They've been here for two weeks already. Being pregnant makes this a harder feet than normal. LOL But we are loving it anyways.
On Tuesday we go for the 4D ultrasound. I get to take all of the kids with me too! We are all excited about that one.
I'll add a few pics, then I am off. We are going to a baseball game tonight. I need to get all the kids ready to go.
I like this one of the kids on the hammock.
This is one of my favorite pics so far this summer.
Monday, June 9, 2008
The other night I had a dream that I was walking with Kaleb(my 3yr old). He ran way ahead of me and I thought it was OK because there were some people we knew ahead of me. Then in my dream there was a pool. Well, Kaleb jumped right in! The lady that was close to him jumped in and got him out before anything bad happened. But it scared the **** out of me! In all the excitement he threw up and as I walked away to get a water hose to wash him off with, I threw up too. Then I woke up. This was the day that I was going to my family reunion. Well one of my dogs decided to get sick that night all over the bathroom, where he sleeps. He does that sometimes for no reason because he has a very week stomach. Half way through cleaning it up I had to run to the other bathroom to throw up. I just thought what a weird coincidence, and continued on with my day. Later that day, at the reunion the kids followed an adult outside to go swimming. Kaleb decided to go with them. I thought it's OK, there's an adult with him. She will keep him from drowning. Little did I know.... He followed the big boys right into the pool! He was fully clothed, because we had already gone swimming about 30 minutes before that. So my cousin had to jump in after him. I was right behind them so I was there right after it all happened. As soon as that boy had me in his arms he asked if he could go play again! It didn't faze him a bit!!! Talk about a scary account!
It's enough to make me scared to dream anymore. Any ways last night I had another dream. I was talking to my mom while we were watching a show about c-sections. I was telling her how scarred I was about having to have one. Then later on in the dream my water broke. I just stood there terrified! It was way too soon for that. I am only 5 months along. Then I woke up. I really hope those "fortune telling" days are over! LOL I guess I will know within a couple of days.
Tuesday, June 3, 2008
One other thing that was kind of strange is that Marsha told me that she never agreed with what my mother did. I'm not sure what that means. I'm sure it has something to do with my mom and dad splitting up and probably something to do with him killing himself. So one day I may have to go visit her and have a long chat. I have always been very curious about that time in my life. I would love to know more about my dad too. And they were very close to him. I wonder if they have any pictures of my mom and dad? I am big on pictures. Especially old ones of family.
I had to shorten it just a bit. So the pictures go by much faster than they usually would. And the song Amazing Grace is no longer on there. I had to chose one song to cut off so that it would all fit. And the other two are just to perfect for my mother to loose. So this is it. This is the video slide show that I made in her honor. I miss her already!
Tuesday, May 27, 2008
Everyone has their time
But why did yours have to come so soon?
There are so many people in the world
So why did God have to pick you?
They say things like this make you stronger
But how can that be?
I feel so weak inside
It all feels like a dream
I didn't get to see you
You passed away too soon
But I feel you watching over me
And someday I'll see you again
The last time I saw her was the Monday after Mother's Day, on the 12th. The last time I talked to her was on the 19th or 20th. She sounded so good. She wanted to go to the family reunion. And she wanted to take Dillan (my niece) with us. She had just talked to Yvonne (another close family member) and was excited to get to see her. My grandpa called me on Thursday the 22nd to tell me that she wasn't feeling well. She hadn't gotten out of bed for two days and wasn't eating. She was crying out in pain in the middle of the night. He called me because he just didn't know what to do. He was worried about her. I could hear it in his voice. It worried me a little bit to. Just knowing that she hadn't gotten up out of that room for two days. Not even to eat. She didn't want him in her room, or to even bother her. I told him that the only thing that he really could do would be to call the ambulance to come get her. He didn't want to do that, because she was drinking. He thought that she just wasn't getting up because she was too drunk. Which I guess could have been the case. I feel horrible for him. He had decided that if she didn't get up and at least get something to eat then he would call 911 in the morning. But when he went to get her up, she was gone. God had taken her pain away. That's the only thing that gives me comfort anymore. Knowing that she isn't in pain any more. And knowing that she is in better hands now. With someone that can guide her and take care of her the way she needs it. Like none of us here could ever do for her. She called me to ask if I could stop by on my way home from picking up Christian from school. She wanted to see the kids. But I was being selfish and didn't want to. I hated taking my kids over to see her. I didn't like them seeing her in this dirty place, with liquor on her breath and cigarette smoke all around. Would that really have hurt anything that badly if we just drove by for a minute or so? She could have seen her grandchildren one more time before she died. The last time she saw them was at Christian's game on the 10th. Christian was in one of those moods. And he wouldn't talk to her. He felt bad about that later, and talked about it for a week. That was one of the first things he said when he found out the news. After why did she have to die? And why do people have to get sick? And why does mostly our family have to die? What do you tell an 8 yr old that has lost two grandparents in the past three years. It was harder to tell him about his Mini than anyone else in this world. He did ask me the other day why we called her Mini. I told him that's the name she wanted you to call her. Because she is your skinny Mini! I got half of a smile from him. She was very skinny.
I have been working on a video slide show of pictures of my mom. I have almost 80 pics of her throughout her life. It's a shame really that I don't have more of her in the resent years. I put them together with a few quotes/poems and songs. I used Desperado, by The Eagles, Bridge Over Troubled Waters, by Simon and Garfunkel, and of course Amazing Grace, this one was done by Leeann Rhymes. The trio of songs is beautiful! I think it has helped me in my grieving. Although, I don't think I am done. I am far from it actually. It still doesn't feel right to me. It still feels like I am talking about someone else when I talk about her memorial service. I still can't believe it has happened.
I had to go put flowers on my father's grave sight the other day. This has hit me hard. I have no parents now. My father committed suicide when I was only 2 yrs old. And now my mother is gone too. And I can't help but think about how I could have done more in the past couple of years to include her in my family's life. I don't want to feel like that. But I do.
Now I want to go visit San Miguel de Allende. Where we lived for a while, in Mexico. My mother loved living there. She was free to be herself. People didn't judge you like they do here. It's a beautiful country too. So primitive compared to here. I have always wanted to go back some day. I would like to show my husband where I lived for a while. I would like to show him what a beautiful place it can be. But with the baby on the way, now is not a good time. I guess it will be a few years before I can even think of going back.
I think I've rambled enough for the time being. Maybe I will try to get the slide show downloaded next week, and put it up on here.
Wednesday, May 7, 2008
I had really wanted a girl. But it looks like God had other plans for me. This is going to be my last baby. DH is going to get "fixed" and we are going to look into me getting it done as well. We may have to wait untill we can pay for it though. It's cheaper for DH so we know we are gong to do that one. But I have been very sad lately, because that means that I will not get a chance to have a little girl of my own. Then I start feeling bad about feeling bad! I know it will be alright, I guess I just need some time. I wanted to go shopping after I found out, but I didn't end up with the time for it. So I went the next day with my sister, my aunt, my grandmother and my cousin. I looked around at cloths, but didn't see anything that caught my eye. Not for a boy at least. I saw tons of stuff for girls! I finally settled on a couple of outfits on the clearance rack. But I wasn't thrilled about them. I actually ended up finding a lot of maternity cloths that I liked though. I ended up splurging and getting myself an outfit too. I have tried to get into shopping, but every time I go I gravitate towards the little girl stuff. Then I get sad again and don't want to shop anymore.
Saturday, April 26, 2008
It all started when my husband got called into go to work. He was told that they needed him on a different rig out of town. It's a "sit down" job, so that means he stays in a trailer out on the rig untill they are done,, or untill they don't need him anymore. He is taking over someone else's job because they needed to take care of some things at home. What ever. So his mother decided to have lunch before he has to leave town since his birthday is on May 2nd. And he will not be here. At first our youngest son was saying that he wanted to see Papa Dean(my father-in-law) and Nana(my mother-in-law). Well Papa Dean had to be at work so it was just going to be us and Nana. He wasn't so happy about that, but still OK with it. We get there and Papa Dean shows up too! OMG!!! Kaleb was soooo happy! He sat on Papa Dean's Lap the whole time!When it came time to leave he told me, "Be go you" and pointed to my in-laws. This means he wants to go with Papa Dean and Nana. I tell him no, you have to go with mommy and daddy. You can go with Papa Dean and Nana tomorrow. The kids both stay over at their house every Saturday night. But he just kept saying "no, be go you," and pointing to them. So we all walk out together and he runs to Nana and holds her hand out to the car. We all went to look at her rental car. So when it was time to go he gave her a hug and wouldn't let go! It was like it was a life or death situation! He wanted to go with them so bad! I have never seen him want to go with anyone that badly before. It was actually pretty funny, I have to admit. Well, Papa Dean ended up giving in and taking Kaleb with him. He was just ever so happy!
So right after that I had to pick up Christian from school. Who, by the way, made the A honor role again this 6 weeks! We started off thinking that we would go practice throwing the ball at the park, then go for ice cream. But we had to go pick up my husbands meds before he went to work. And we were stuck waiting for them to sort out the details for 45 minutes! Ugh... And that's because I called it in the day before! Any ways, he changed his mind and wanted to go to a movie instead. My father-in-law, said that he was going to bring Kaleb back home at 8:00 pm that night since he had to go play music that night. So we ran out of time to go see a movie too! It was already 5:30 by the time we were finally able to leave the house. That's the time that daddy left for work to. So we ended up going to McDonald's for dinner. Mmm... *sarcasm added here* I hate McDonald's. Then we went to Target to exchange one of Kaleb's birthday gifts, that was a double. While we were there I told Christian that if he wanted to get a toy and settle for an icee instead of an ice cream we could do that. And, of course, he agreed. So he picked out an Iron Man toy. Then we came home and played 3 games of Yahtzee. He won every one of them, fair and square! That boy has the best luck on games. Just after that he was saying how much fun he had. And how we should do this more often! That just made my heart melt. He even said, but I know we can't get a new toy every time. So we should just have our special day more often. Aww... My father in-law called about that time and said that Kaleb had already fallen asleep so he could just stay there for the night. So Christina and I could have gone to the movies after all! But Christian didn't see it that way. His first thought was, cool, more time for me and you! So we ended up going to Hollywood Video and renting a couple of movies. Then going to Marble Slab next door and getting some ice cream. We picked out the Bad News Bears (the old one with Walter Matthau) and Benji, a classic. When we got home we popped some popcorn and watched Bad News Bears in my bed. Christian must have said this was the best day ever about 20 times! LOL I love that boy so much. And I was so glad that I was able to spend some time with him, and with out his little brother. He finally was able to get some much needed attention from me. Now I know I am going to have to do this more often!
Well, since my hubby is not going to be here for his birthday, that also means that he won't be here for the ultrasound that we are going to have that day! I had set it up for his birthday, and at a time we knew he could make it. Well that was for the job he was on. We didn't expect them to pull him off of this one to put him on another! Ugh... I hate the oil field! It's so unpredictable. Even when you think it is for the next few weeks or so! So I asked my mother-in-law to go with me since my hubby won't be there. I am so disappointed! We are hoping to find out what we are having then too! And he won't be here for that!!! Oh well, at least I don't have to go alone. And I can call him. At least he can know about it on his birthday.
Monday, April 7, 2008
Sunday, February 24, 2008
Friday, February 1, 2008
Saturday, January 19, 2008
I need lots of prayers for this one to work out for me. At least good thoughts!
We have decided not to tell anyone in our family about it until I can get to the Dr and know that all is well, for sure. I'm not sure how long I can keep it a secret. I need some help with that too! That's why I am posting it here. I can't hold it in. I need to tell someone, everyone! But it needs to wait for a little while longer.
Mean while I have found a pattern to use for the blankets I will make. It's the diagonal box stitch. It's not hard at all, and I love the way it looks. I went ahead and used a different hook though, size H. The Jimbo Hook is just to big for most blankets(size J). =( But given the news above, I think I will put that hook to better use! No harm after all. lol
Well, I guess I better go now. I have a lot to do before bed.
Tuesday, January 15, 2008
It's tulip wood and has a kind of pinkish tint to it.
I just love it!
On another note, today is my 4th anniversary to my wonderful husband! We've had our ups and downs. But that's to be expected I guess. Especially when his father died, we lost a baby and we had a baby. All within the first couple of years. But life has been good in general. He got hired on with a new company today too. He is there right now filling out paper work and picking up his company truck. I love the fact that he can get those! It saves us a lot of money!!! Any ways, I look forward to many more wonderful and loving years!We aren't really doing much to celebrate right now. But we have decided that we are going to book a cruse for the summer. We just have to decide which one! We are calling that our gift/honeymoon(since we never got one).
Wednesday, January 9, 2008
That's not many! However this is a condition that affects my cousins little girl.
Macy was under a year old when she was diagnosed with Retinoblastoma, a cancer of the retina. At first it was unilateral, meaning in one eye. By the time she was two years old it had become bilateral. Macy had to have both of her eyes removed by the time she was two years old. In there place there are now some prosthetic eyes that matched hers.
She is now 5 or 6 years old. She uses a cane to walk with and reads braille. Just last year this wonderful, strong little girl played baseball! Yes, you read that right, I said she payed baseball! They used a special ball that made a whistling noise. She was on a team of little kids that could see. She loved it! Just not enough to play this year. My son was the same way though. Baseball is a pretty slow game. And little kids, like these two, lose interest quickly and become board. So I don't blame her there.
This little girl is the strongest little girl that I know! She sets her mind to do something, and she does it! Just this Christmas she asked to have a camera. Well, no one can say no to her so of course she got one. And from what I hear, she has taken at least a couple of shots where the people are right in the center of the picture! See what I mean. She CAN do anything she wants to. Having no sight doesn't slow her down!
Any ways, Jimbo's interest in getting the word out there for his cause got me to thinking. What if I can do something to get the word out about this condition as well?! I know what you are thinking now, especially if you know his blog. But no! I don't carve wood. So I can't make you a nice, pretty crochet hook. And I doubt that I will have time to make anything to auction off or to give away as a prize. But I thought I would put the word out there for those few people that might read my blog. Maybe one day I will get around to holding a contest something like what Jimbo is doing on his blog. But I wouldn't hold my breath if I were you.
So here are some links that you can go to, to find out more about Retinoblastoma. The first link is where you can find some stories about the survivors as well as information about the condition. The second one is where you can find some information that is easier to understand(for me at least). The other two are just some links that I found by googling.
Thanks for reading!
It's all about getting the word out!